The Masquerade





Staring a half-hearted wonder of who you really

are into a crackle and glow of home comforts,

I swill serene glass of Margaux round and round

in a hand that writes and re-writes reminiscence.


Commuting through those sullied Surrey suburbs,

did the severity of your suit cut a sharp intake of

my breath as I pushed through the hollow crowd?

Poetry flames in devotion, an awakening in motion.


Far away, but recklessly closer than you think,

you slowly shut your MacBook down in disquietude.

Restlessly twisting vexed metal round and round

on finger that has reached out to any port in a storm.


Paroxysm of ravening strikes at being lost within loss,

eternally searching for your own fire nymph of fervour.

Body ages with resigned alacrity and mind unkempt,

a lonely clandestine, mixing glitter with fool’s gold.



Do not go gentle into that good night,

Old age should burn and rave at close of day;

Rage, rage against the dying of the light.


Though wise men at their end know dark is right,

Because their words had forked no lightning they

Do not go gentle into that good night.




Our host never lets guise slide as he enters

the ballroom, face familiar but unknown,

creating mystery with grammar school tones.

An iridescent blend of anxiety and cunning

He tastes debauchery with decaying eyes,

every flavour of colour through a screen of lies .


Host of followers delightfully exposed

on account of his whims, letting masks fall

dancing hither and thither, beautiful curves

weave and smile, they come – and they go,

but what he really craves for is a beautiful soul.

To keep him alight as years ember and cajole.



Clock strikes darkest hour before dawn,

he divines a brilliant blue flame in the hearth,

an uncomplicated complexity, rising a

Pandora’s paradox with hell-fired hair.

A nightmare dressed like a daydream

in libertine gown, tempered high heels,

an antagonist extreme, holding brave glass

chalice of mistrust, and whip of austere suspicion.


She strides – cracks right through his marrow,

Hands him her whip and blood-red drink

Even though they have only just met

She smiles an indecorous, whispering light

“Don’t look at your face in the mirror,

look at the nymph that sustains your soul.”

Stroking ashen hair at his tempestuous temple,

“You are not so faded yet – I think.”



*Excerpt from Dylan Thomas – Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night









Love in the Asylum

Mad Girl's Love Song


A stranger has come
To share my room in the house not right in the head,
A girl mad as birds

Bolting the night of the door with her arm her plume.
Strait in the mazed bed
She deludes the heaven-proof house with entering clouds

Yet she deludes with walking the nightmarish room,
At large as the dead,
Or rides the imagined oceans of the male wards.

She has come possessed
Who admits the delusive light through the bouncing wall,
Possessed by the skies

She sleeps in the narrow trough yet she walks the dust
Yet raves at her will
On the madhouse boards worn thin by my walking tears.

And taken by light in her arms at long and dear last
I may without fail
Suffer the first vision that set fire to the stars.


Dylan Thomas

The Transformation





I remain free

my own lost saviour

a follower of no-one

sorcering a new novena.





I still storms

in steadfast spirit

a respectable sinner

proclaiming the illicit.





I demure uncertain

face reveals and veils

heart throes stone to flesh

keeping close my seven devils.





I am graced

with all virtues from history

my archetype immortalised

amidst this scripture of mystery.




© Katypoetess 2016



Storm of Silence


As the indecorous breeze does billow

ebb and flow of his dreams,

swelling a deep desire

for her to return

within each tide

of hesitation.


As the unconscious ark of salvation,

sinks slow beneath his sleep,

drowning a deep desire

for her to return

he lies laconic

of malediction.



© Katypoetess 2016







In an Artist’s Studio


One face looks out from all his canvasses,
One self same figure sits or walks or leans;
We found her hidden just behind those screens,
That mirror gave back all her loveliness.
A queen in opal or in ruby dress,
A nameless girl in freshest summer greens,
A saint, an angel; – every canvass means
The same one meaning, neither more nor less.
He feeds upon her face by day and night,
And she with true kind eyes looks back on him
Fair as the moon and joyful as the light;
Not wan with waiting, not with sorrow dim;
Not as she is, but was when hope shone bright;
Not as she is, but as she fills his dream.


Christina Rossetti



His unravelling – of sacred shroud.


The suffocation of

her melancholic madness

by cloth of self-belief

blesses a new beginning.


The emancipation from

Poetess to temple Papess

his ruin miraculously raised

to unrepentant penitent.


The revealing complete

unveils fervent holiness,

his new bride of a Christ

in divine ambiguity.


His lost gospel – finally found.


© Katypoetess 2016



I search

for your soul

in every passing stranger’s face.

Knowing it is too late.


I dreamt

we met again

soothing all the pain between us.

The cruellest of dreams.


I crucify

time through mourning

yet it cannot hold back dawning,

of my emancipation.


© Katypoetess 2016



La Petite Mort of Creativity

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Let me bleed out a moment’s release,

from this contemptible inner peace.


my tears are too clear of midnight ink,

my thoughts are apathetic and indistinct.


I look for omens, cracks in bedroom mirrors,

for owls, magpies – among nests of unfamiliar


I churlishly spread my coquettish legs

seducing any passing stranger’s death.


To be touched – trembled by fingers of grief,

so I can weave a wanton poetic wreath


I call all gods to bring me a sultry storm,

traumas to ride wild into rhythm and form.


I hunger for blood of an illicit lover’s return

to break open my heart, leave me spurned,

filling this barren womb with words

that haven’t been born, read, or heard.


© Katypoetess 2016



Immortal Soliloquy

Immortal Soliloquy

They say that the worst kind of grieving

is when the lost antagonist is still alive,

whether sudden as a spring swallow’s dive

or a slow wintered bewilderment in the leaving.

Buried, burnt or butchered cruelly out of heart

that did endure with vexation and veneration,

fear of being alone or guilt of being causation

of their final yield to the wind that blows love apart.


But do we still wish to live in a solitary moratorium,

coveting our fervorous hearts in a slate stone mirth?


©  Katypoetess 2016




Cacophony in the Second City


I amble amongst the snake trail
of crowds and loud streets
of consumer rights and political fights.

Then he came and  asked me
whether I had any faith at all
and I shook my head in a lie
while he thrust a pamphlet
of salvation into my hands.

And he said “Are you religious
as I am not and never was because
it binds you too tight but do try
as you might to turn to God my love.”

And he wished me a happy life
and a good day before he took
shelter in Subway as he was now
more than hungry enough.

Then I turned to a man who
had a plan through Islam
offering me an English copy
of the Quran while the busker
sung and smiled that he was
loving angels instead.

And my ego smiled back
and for that one moment
he was the prophet
that I sought amongst strangers.

Meanwhile, beside the homeless
and tomeless a lady mediates
in the rain for human rights
among the remains and pain
in a city of mistaken identity.

And I cannot hear any sound
of despair above the crowds,
but here in the air the
call to prayer is everywhere.

But paradise never comes.

©  Katypoetess 2016








 Acquire my peace within yourselves


She is nobody’s disciple,

a dither of image and noise,

amongst everybody’s daily causality.


No crowds will gather,

as she looks into the eyes,

that lie tied, and tired in front of her.


She is every colour

of skin, every age, every weather,

every obedience and whim, with no morality.


Dwelling in a magdala

of immortal solitude, amongst

houses of those who murmur against her.


Anointed teachings worn

that her saviour gave to her, more than all,

because, she – woman, was most worthy.


A heroine for faith

and faithless, contemplating salvation,

while drinking penitence from jar of alabaster.


She is subliminal free will

kissing thinning seperatedness

between determinism and uncertainty.


She is veiled opportunity

presenting itself, avoiding the past

that dances between resistance and surrender.


She is echoed resonance

of what might never have been

bestowing golden gifts of serendipity.


Staring at timeless stars,

loving with fear her own prophecy.

An outspoken, softly silent soothsayer.


Seven sacraments set,

yet no one hears her judgement,

that salvation lies in doing, not knowing.


But isolation is her myth.

All Gods and scientists roll dice,


and there is

no straight path

to paradise.


© Katypoetess 2016


*The Gospel of Mary Magdalene 4:1




First Love


I ne’er was struck before that hour
   With love so sudden and so sweet,
Her face it bloomed like a sweet flower
   And stole my heart away complete.
My face turned pale as deadly pale,
   My legs refused to walk away,
And when she looked, what could I ail?
   My life and all seemed turned to clay.


And then my blood rushed to my face
   And took my eyesight quite away,
The trees and bushes round the place
   Seemed midnight at noonday.
I could not see a single thing,
   Words from my eyes did start—
They spoke as chords do from the string,
   And blood burnt round my heart.


Are flowers the winter’s choice?
   Is love’s bed always snow?
She seemed to hear my silent voice,
   Not love’s appeals to know.
I never saw so sweet a face
   As that I stood before.
My heart has left its dwelling-place
   And can return no more.
John Clare



Late arrival into meeting room.
You scavenge for me amongst
faces you command, commandeer.
I lower my eyes to defend
against bulleted frontline thoughts,
daring an agenda of fantasy.

Sitting opposite. Each others target.
Our kindred spirits embrace
only once throughout the hour.
Quick chatter accompanies slow exits;
you need “a word”, and blend me into
corporate grey carpeted corridor.

Enter. Pussy bowed, lace topped stockings
in boudoir of executive entertainment.
Machiavellian eyes spy femme fatale,
coquettishly stretched across bastion desk,
fetching sweet treat to couple with tea.

Professional advice given, attentive notes
carefully written; keeping hands busy.
Nervously tapping inveigling high heels.
I leave – before emotions get ricocheted
on the office floor like our biscuit crumbs.


From “Of Lilith and Anthony” poetry collection by Katypoetess 2014

The Silencer


She whispers an aberration,

with mouthful of soot stained metal.

Pointing out deluded self-doubt,

muzzling lies with targeted fire.

Seizing breath without sound,

at least four Turks and a Russian

With little or no repercussion.


Synapsed heart from sharp to steel.

Drinking shots after taking shots,

murdering time as it flies fast home,

past window of his decamped reality.

For queen and ungracious country.


As he ricochets between

brittle past – hyper-vigilant future,

she holds him shell shocked.


In the here and now.


©  Katypoetess 2016



The Sick Muse


Alas, poor Muse, what ails you so today?
Your hollow eyes with midnight visions burn,
And turn about, in your complexion play
Madness and horror, cold and taciturn.

Green succubus and rosy imp — have they
Poured you both fear and love into one glass?
Or with his tyrant fist the nightmare, say,
Submerged you in some fabulous morass?

I wish that, breathing health, your breast might nourish
Ever robuster thoughts therein to flourish:
And that your Christian blood, in rhythmic flow,

With those old polysyllables would chime,
Where, turn about, reigned Phoebus, sire of rhyme,
And Pan, the lord of harvests long ago.

Charles Baudelaire— Translated by Roy Campbell